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Afterword

This paper was unlike most of the ones I write. Sure, my human psychology pieces can encounter sensitive topics about myself. However, I’ve never really done a full story just about me. Maybe in the past, when I was younger, I tossed around the idea of an autobiography. It never came to fruition. However, through these papers, I feel like it’s starting to write itself. I’m not just listing the events in my life. I’m writing about the thoughts, the feelings, the takeaways from it, through all these papers.

This paper was me recounting my experience, but the favorite part of writing all of it was reflecting on what my journey has turned into. Ever since I was forced to face my own mortality, it gave me a new perspective.

As the Owl City song, Hospital Flowers says, “Happiness returned to me through a grave emergency.” The entire song is about this very concept, though about a near death experience in a car crash.

If you’ve been through trials and tribulations, allow it to reset your perspective, and take another look on your priorities. That could be hobbies, friends or family, career goals, whatever drives your passion.